2026-01-05

[2026-01-05 Mon]

1. PREFACE

Today was a day. I faced humiliation, yet remained stable.
First note of 2026!!

2. Notebooks Referenced

Book 6(Dec 18-…)
Book 0(Journal)

3. Important Event Log

<2026-01-05 Mon 13:10> ?(3), Brodie's group mocked my habits–asked me "is this how [you] check [your] pulse"
<2026-01-05 Mon 13:11> Jack(?, gr9) greeted me "Erel. my goat" [1]
<2026-01-05 Mon 13:12> Kylie, Jordana, greeted me. This is ambiguous.
<2026-01-05 Mon 13:20> Tyler greeted me and complimented my style. This is mockery → withdrawal [1]
<2026-01-05 Mon 13:25> Matt (?, gr9) asked me an informative question while looking at me. I resonded and he ignored me and asked "sup erel". Mockery → ExternalWithdraw.
<2026-01-05 Mon 13:41> I saw alexia(ber, gr9) close to Noam. at science in room N176. → Jealousy → CRE. I went to the bathroom to ground myself then returned to the task at hand(English).
<2026-01-05 Mon 15:30> Hudson(?, gr9) did that name thing [1] in gym.
<2026-01-05 Mon 15:35> I sat next to Jacob(2) and they both complimented my hair(Mockery, Ambiguous, -0.2) I replied with a simple nod and they commanded me to talk. I refused.
<2026-01-05 Mon 15:30>–<2026-01-05 Mon 16:30> I was forced to play net. I was mocked constnatly for my performance. And given exaggerated compliments on success.
<2026-01-05 Mon 16:10> Jacob(bit, gr9) threw his penny at me and told me to put it back
<2026-01-05 Mon 16:15> The teacher mocked my performance in class when I asked him where to put the net. → Compliance. Order must be maintained, even in assymetrical environments.
<2026-01-05 Mon 16:17> Hudson did something with his shirt? He lifted it up infront of me and taunted me.
<2026-01-05 Mon 16:20> ? said: "Why are you so brown" to his friend in the locker room. This hurts, I am african.

3.1. Meta-Log

[1] This is a pattern: I am greeted with the first syllable of my name emphasized and then complimented. People laugh.
[2] I am frequently complimented on my abilities, but when I demonstrate them, people ignore me or respond with doubt/mockery.

4. January 5 — Computer Technology P1 SCHOOL TECHNOLOGY

<2026-01-05 Mon 08:30>–<2026-01-05 Mon 09:30>

5. January 5 — Tanakh P2 SCHOOL TANAKH

<2026-01-05 Mon 09:30>–<2026-01-05 Mon 10:30>

6. January 5 — Science P3 SCHOOL SCIENCE

<2026-01-05 Mon 10:40>–<2026-01-05 Mon 11:40>

6.1. Review:

6.2. New Notes:

The Periodic Table

7. January 5 — Jewish History P4 SCHOOL JEWISHSTUDIES

<2026-01-05 Mon 11:40>–<2026-01-05 Mon 12:40>

8. January 5 — English P5 SCHOOL ENGLISH

<2026-01-05 Mon 13:25>–<2026-01-05 Mon 14:25>

9. January 5 — Geography P6 SCHOOL GEOGRAPHY

<2026-01-05 Mon 14:25>–<2026-01-05 Mon 15:25>

10. January 5 — Phys. Ed P7 SCHOOL GYM

<2026-01-05 Mon 15:30>–<2026-01-05 Mon 16:30>

11. Elsewhere

11.1. References

11.2. In my garden

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